December 2009
looking back on this year, as i said in my last post, it’s time for it to be over.
this year was such a trial for me.
filled with heartache, struggle, anger, and sadness.
there were a couple of things that made it worthwhile though.
i got a new nephew and passed two semesters in college.
plus i made a ton of new friends.
i learned more about myself.
i became more of an extrovert.
i...
i want this year to be over now.
things just keep happening that are making me want to move out and quit my job.
i think tonight will do me good by being with my best friend.
she always makes me forget about the stupid problems that are going on.
please come quickly 2010.
this year sucked.
ahhh crazy next couple of days and spending it ALL with friends…
today: work 5-close with Faye
tomorrow: partying New Years eve style with Carol
Friday: doing everything and anything with Allison Jones
Saturday: working 12-5 partially with Faye and prob some other cool ppl
Sunday: galavanting in the city with Ali Cossa
Monday: whole day with miss Jewelie
Tuesday-Saturday: probably...
there are so many frustrations i want to get out…so many things i want to tell other people…because im mad at them and have been for a while…but i just dont know how to do it…dont know the right words to say….im lost in this fog, lost in these grudges that are holding me back and all i want to do is make it right, but each one keeps haunting my soul.
“I’ve got my mouth.
It’s a weapon. It’s a bombshell. It’s a cannon. I’ve got my...”
– Meg and Dia-Fighting for Nothing
my favorite song at the moment :)
I’ve been alone so many nights now And I’ve been waiting for the stars to fall I keep holding out for what I don’t know To be with you Just to be with you So here I am, staring at the moon tonight Wondering how you look in this light Maybe you’re somewhere thinking about me, too To be with you… there’s nothing I wouldn’t do And I can’t imagine two...
Old Borego
I’ve seen snow on Christmas Eve Gracing frosted evergreens After most the trees go brown I’m still standing I’ve been miles away from home Trapped in Charles Dicken’s poems I’ve been freezing in this town But I’m still standing It’s almost New Year, San Diego Another Christmas in Old Borego Face down in a little white shack In the back room ...
playlist these days:
Spotlight: Mutemath
I Like What You Say: Nada Surf
Rescued: Jack’s Mannequin
Hello Hurricane & Nothing is Sound Albums: Switchfoot
Face Up: Lights
One Sail; Here, here, and here: Meg and Dia
I Must Be Dreaming: The Maine
Naturally: Selena Gomez
Careful; Turn it Off; Misguided Ghosts; All I wanted: Paramore
today was a pretty tough morning….but christmas eve is tomorrow and christmas is in two days…i have so much to be thankful for: a family, a job, really amazing friends, and most of all a loving Savior who came to earth to ultimately save me from my sins.
have a wonderful Christmas and New Year everybody!! enjoy time with family and friends :)
“Inside this shell is a prison cell.”
– Switchfoot-Free
dear work, i hate you for having me wake up this early. this just isn’t fair.
dear movie, stop haunting my mind like a ghost….it kept me from sleeping half the night. thanks.
dear life, you are complicated and i hate you for it. be nicer please.
dear you, i’ve made a mess of me all on my own. sorry for blaming you.
sincerely,
confused, scared, tired, running out the door to...
im listening to the early versions of the hello hurricane switchfoot CD and i think im in love with each and every track. there are 24 tracks and all of them, early ideas or not, are amazing. i also watched the dvd on the making of…and let me say…i understand this CD so much better. it has given me a new found appreciation for these boys :)
“God interrupts us with His love to swell into a chorus more compelling than the...”
– C. Marsh
wow….i actually feel quite relieved.
i was defending you in my heart all along, holding onto things,
but i was terribly wrong.
you are a lying, cheating, hurtful person.
i don’t want to see you ever again
and not seeing you and not talking to you for these past months has made my life 1000000000000 times better.
goodbye forever.
brokenbeautifully:
amazingbecauseitis:
...
brokenbeautifully:
Who I am - Nick Jonas and the...
“The selfish answer is that at the end of a songwriting process or a show,...”
– Jon Foreman :)
i want to marry a guy like David Archuleta…..strongly musically talented, and a kind, sweet spirit about him.
He also has to be Christian and will love the Lord more than me. :)
It’s just you and me and there’s no one around I feel like I’m hanging by a thread, it’s a long way down I’ve been trying to breathe, but I’m fighting for air I’m at an all time low with no place to go But you’re always there when everything falls apart And it seems like the world is crashing at my feet You like me the best, when I’m a mess...
“how do you love someone and make it last?
how do you love someone without...”
– Ashley Tisdale
i’m not interested in what you have to say anymore because apparently me listening doesn’t matter. i don’t get a word in edge wise anyway.
you flashback to when he said forever and always…
it rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone….
it’s too late for you and your white horse to come around. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cFOAHZ9U6c0
possibly my new favorite band: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8SCaxaE_40&feature=channel
here, here, and here
he pointed to his heart. he proceeded to say, “You will always be a part of this part of me. You will always be in here, and I will always have your heart.”
he pointed to his mind. he said, “I will always be thinking of you. No matter how far apart we are, no matter what fights we get into, no matter what happens, I will always have you up here reminding me why you are...
do you ever get the feeling that you are being used or being taken advantage of?
do you ever get someone who uses you for your advice, your money, your ears, your car, and gives nothing in return?
they are like a ship that docks at your port but sails away when they don’t need you anymore.
and when the waves are high and the water is pounding them in their face, and you are the only port...
God: remember the days when it was all about boys and not really about me?
me: oh yeah…sorry about that….I screw up a lot….
God: it’s okay to screw up now and then, you are still my child :)
me: well that makes me feel better, but i still wish i didn’t do the things i did in the past.
God: they brought you to where you are today. experiences made you who you are....
yet another great article by Jonathan Foreman :] →
“Back then I swore I was going to marry him someday,
But I realized some BIGGER...”
– Taylor Swift-Fifteen
“here, here, and here.
He pointed to his heart, and mind and ears.”
– Meg and Dia